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"Many people have told me that I've changed. That Im not me anymore. But truth is, I think I've just found myself."



Deal with it, or get lost :)


xoxo

Myspace is full of douchebags. Tsk.

5:44 PM Khairul: aslam kom boli kenal
5:48 PM Khairul: wah sobon ye wak ni ?
5:56 PM Khairul: hai tak ade balas pon. teruk ni... adu sakit kepale saye ni
6:08 PM Khairul: hai
6:14 PM Khairul: lacau cibai ciyau fak kiyu



HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA.



Asshole loser! ;)

:(

He lost his soul to a woman so heartless.

S.I.

Know you have died
And your pain is the sign
You're alive, you're alive, you're alive, you're alive
You can still bleed
You can cry, you can need
You can shred your soul
You can rise when you fall

~Anonymous

One too many times before.

We all know the pain of a broken heart. How about the pain of a heartbreaker? Easily overlooked. Not because its not important. But because they dont even deserve to feel anything. They dont deserve the attention. They dont deserve to say they feel the same pain or more.


Because they are the ones who gave suffering. And now they should suffer alone.



How can you sleep knowing you'll go to hell?
You sleep without hope.
You sleep with acceptance.
You sleep preparing.

xoxo

Week 1

First week of Uni was a bitch. I am least bothered. Why am i there again? Oh yeah for the sake of a degree and to waste my dad's money. Wee. I think people think im weird. Because i walk alone and randomly sit next to people i dont know. I barely talk because i just dont feel like talking. And i never linger around campus. Straight home after class. The best part of university life is i get to wear shorts and walk home from campus. I am least interested.


But i cant deny i got a little bit excited when i went Tesco yesterday and bought my supplies :) Ring files! Test pad! Notebook! Pens! Weee. I have a weird fetish. I love notebooks. I love stationaries. I love gift boxes. I love cute wrapping paper :) Hee.



By the way has anyone watched Eclipse yet? :/ I waaaaaant to watch! Like sooo badly. Guys, lets goooo! Geeez. Dont watch without me ): And and and MTV WORLDSTAGE LIVE IN MALAYSIA. TOKIO HOTEL. :O Ahhhhhhhhhh. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.


I NEED TICKETS. FUCK.


FUCK EVERYTHING.



xoxo

Jay Sean - Down (cover)

Jay Sean - Down (Cover)

By my friend, Wong Fu Wai :) Which i think is not bad at all! Enjoy!

xoxo

Over the weekend,

Spain won the world cup.
I missed Cheer 2010.
I started my first class in uni today - Atoms and Bonding.
And i realised something hugee.
Which im not telling here so :P


Right. Tomorrow will be a longer day.


xoxo

Whatever

Im starting to even talk like him.
If you dont know, it is bordering on an obsession
so insane, so crazy
that everything just revolves around you.
And Im doing my best to keep my feet on the ground.

Im wearing thin.



So yeah i registered myself today into the University of Nottingham Malaysia Campus. Course of study - Foundation in Science. Induction is tomorrow. Fuck this. I am NOT in the mood at all to start my studies. I am NOT in the mood to study about Atoms and Bonding. Wtf. WHY did i take science? Urghh.


Lectures start on Monday. And i'll be walking to school. Sigh. I feel sick even talking bout it.



10th & 11th July 2010 - CHEER 2010.

Its sad that X-plodetes arent competing. And its sad that i might not be able to go. MIGHT. sigh. Fuck this.




xoxo

Auf wiedersehen Germans ):

Spain 1 - Germany 0


Everyone is cursing Paul the octopus on facebook. HAHAHAHAHAHHA. Stupid match. Stupid game. Stupid goal. What were German defenders doing to even let Puyol wander around unmarked. And Puyol scored of all people. -.- Germans were playing like crap. Sigh.



Netherlands vs Spain in finals. Epic.
Im supporting Netherlands.
Because Huntelaar is cute :)
So is Wesley Sneijder :)
And David Villa just got lucky this season.


..l..


Im grieving )':
This world cup sucks. lol


xoxo

Bye bye Germany?

Just so you know, Spain will win tonight. And i will cry my eyes out ): NO its not because the stupid octopus has spoken. Personally that octopus needs to be in my sushi, but anyway yeah it'll be a Spain vs. Nederlands final. And if thats the case, im supporting Nederlands because i dislike spain for no particular reason :)


Registration for uni tomorrow. I. Dont. Want. To. Go. To. Uni. Arghhhhhhhhhhh.
Yeah, chastice me for being a little kid but i do need incentives on this one! *hint hint* *does the eyebrow thingy*

Bah. Nevermind )':


xoxo

The case of the inverted sperm due to underage sex.

..... Then the tail will penetrate the ovum. Instead of the head. The nucleus in the head is then guided to the end of the tail by active transportation with the use of the abundant mitochondrian available in the sperm. Once penetration is succeeded, the nucleus glides along the length of the sperm till the tail end and is pushed out into the ovum. Once that happens, the head wilts and disintegrates leaving the tail behind inside the ovum. When successful invertilization has occured, an upside foetus will slowly develop in the womb once the usual implantation has taken place. When the baby is born, you will find unusual characteristics such as the ass of the baby where the head should be and head at the bottom half of the body and mnay more other characteristics, some even born with wings. Such babies are born stillborn. With 100% of cases reported as so. This explains the lack of an alien like creature living on this planet. Scientists suspects creatures such as the chupacabras or the jersey devil is a form of an 'inverted' baby that has defied the odds and was born alive. But there isnt enough evidence to prove this yet. We hope more experiments done on children losing their virginity under the age of 14 will help give some answers. Therefore, if you're under the age of 14 help humanity by participating in underage sex. If you're a dumbass and believe what i just written, please go shoot yourself.




Thank you. xo


*disclaimer: i am not responsible for the increased rates of underage sex. i am also not responsible for the increased rates of suicidal pre-teens. This post is intended as a joke. Live with it.*


:)

Intellectual badass baby!

I need to reset my body clock because uni is starting soon. Sigh. Maximum - sleep at 3am. But world cup is not over yet. So again, whats the point of starting now? -.- No way im missing matches. Germany thrashed Argentina 4-0. Like wow. Fucking awesome. And now Germany vs Spain in semifinals. Im thinking, germany will go all the way :) Yayyyy! Hopefully. And whats up with that oracle octopus dude? Fake. Fake. Fake.




Shared pain is the worst pain. Neither one of you knows how to heal it.
Think about it.
xoxo

Truth is

Im going crazier day by day. And thats a very very good thing.

Weight, what?

I do not have an eating disorder. I think lol.

So i havent been eating a lot recently. And because of that i've lost weight (: All in all ive lost a little over 10 pounds this year compared to last year. Not bad. Pretty healthy weight loss right? Recently i dropped a little below 110 pounds. Not good. For a girl of 1.65m, give or take a few. But yeah. Im at my best shape for ballet, thats if i manage to maintain this weight and not lose or gain more. What with my Advance 1 exams coming up in 2 months. Shit. I am not ready. Anyway one bad thing with losing all these weight, i lost my back strength. Flexibility, yeah still there. But i dont have the strength anymore. ): Not like how i used to. I worked so hard for my posture. And now its getting weaker. I have to gain it back like fasttt. In time for exams! I have to wake up, get off my ass and start practicing. Once a week class just will not work. And maybe take vitamins. Urghh. Effort people, effort! Ahhhh

Yeah practice, practice, practice.

xoxo

On a saturday morning I am..

..in Mcd Kajang. Waiting for Embrys to finish her tuition class. Bored and sleepy. One hour plus of discontinuous sleep last night. Missing you. Oh and Ghana lost. Uruguay won. Penalty shootout. Niceee.

I swear i'll fall asleep on the table right here and now.
But then they'll steal my lappy.
Sigh.
Life is so hard :(
Wtf.


xx

Night owl?

I am supposed to be asleep. Since like 2 hours ago. But cant. So yeah here i am blogging :) Sooooo. Brazil lost. Defeated. Out of the world cup! O: And Netherlands are through to semi finals :) Hmmm. Ghana and Uruguay match going on now. But i was banned from watching by daddy. Because i got to wake up at 7.15am later. :/ But no point. My body clock is completely upside down now. So yeah i was thinking of sneaking downstairs since two hours ago. Im hungry :( Someone went off halfway before i was done so yeah still hungry. Anyways i think i hear him come up to his room. o.o Which means.. FIFA TIME :) and fooooood. RAWRR.


Meeting my girls tomorrow :) Atleast im meeting Embrys for sure. Maddie, not sure yet. And yes my dear bitch why do you have to move to Cheras? :( Kajang was HOME. We were all HOMIES. :'(


Okay that was lame. Dont think i'll be sleeping tonight.

xoxo

Step 1:

Inflict pain onto thyself, as you have inflicted upon others.



DO NOT try at home.
xx

Welcome reality.

Today i realised its hard to feel frightened about anything anymore.
Worry, yes. Sure.
But frightened, nah.
Why?
Because when i looked around
i realised the scariest and ugliest thing in the room


was me.



Just hideous. Welcome reality.
xx

Songs

Its an emo night.



So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.


:'(


James Blunt - Goodbye my lover




If only I knew what I know today
I would hold you in my arms, I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done, forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you .


:(


Christina Aguilera - Hurt



No rewinds
No second times
And I won't break
I won't waste, everything you left behind
So don't follow
Just let it go
The weather's, been better
Don't let it be another...

Breakdown, rebound
This could be my last goodbye
You cross your heart, I hope to die

And I can't deny your eyes
You know I try to read between the lines
I saw a warning sign
And then you threw me up against the wall
Who said that it's better to have loved and lost?
I wish that I had never loved at all.


Boys Like Girls - Up against the wall.


Can you imagine a time when the truth ran free
A birth of a song, a death of a dream
Closer to the edge
This never ending story, hate 4 wheel driving fate
We all fall short of glory, lost in ourself

No I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day, maybe we'll meet again
No I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day, maybe we'll meet again
No, no, no, no


30 seconds to mars - Closer to the edge.



Those days are gone, and I want you so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight

What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?


:')


Backstreet Boys - How did i fall in love with you?



Push the door, I'm home at last
and I'm soaking through and through
Then you hand me a towel
and all I see is you
And even if my house falls down,
I wouldn't have a clue
Because you're near me and

I want to thank you
for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you
is having the best day of my life.


:)


Dido - Thank you



Emo tracks of the night. Lol.

xoxo

These words are my heart and soul.

Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'll bleed my heart out to show
That I won't let go.


:)


Sum 41 - With Me.

xx

4-1

Bye bye England.
Bye bye Fabio Capello.
Bye bye refereeeee :)


Stupid mistake by ref. Wtf are you blind? That was definitely a goal. Sigh. Well Germany deserved their win :)


Next match: Argentina vs Mexico


Go Aguero! :P
LOL.
Yeah im supporting Argentina. And when they win, yeah i said WHEN not IF cuz thats how sure am i, they'll face Germany in quarterfinals.


Brilliant :) Just brilliant.


xoxo

Meinen

YOU ARE MINE. RAWRRRR.

England or Germany?

Great News!


England made it into Top 16! :) And so did Germany! :) Yay! Both teams that i support made it through.


Top 16 clash: England vs Germany.


Great. Perfect. What now? :(

Tag

ABC About You Questions:

A - AVAILABLE: No.
B - BIRTHDAY: 25th May 1992
C - CRUSHING ON: Nobody.
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: 100 Plus.
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Myself.
F - FAVORITE SONG: Currently - Plain white Ts 1234
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Whichever.
H - HOMETOWN: Kuala Lumpur?
I - IN LOVE WITH: You.
J - JUGGLE: Between 2 worlds.
K - KILLED SOMEONE: Nope.
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: 5 hours.
M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Dont drink that stuff.
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 2 brothers.
O - ONE WISH: Quote: "Even forever dont seem like long enough" :)
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: You.
R - REASON TO SMILE: You :)
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 4pm i think.
V - VEGETABLE(S): Er o_o
W - WORST HABIT: Being the laziest ass ever.
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: None
Y – YOYOS ARE: Nostalgic :)
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Gemini

Random Questions About You:

Spell your name without vowels: sylv
What color do you wear most?: Black
What are you listening to?: Plain White Tees - 1234
Are you happy with your life right now?: Yeah
What is your favorite class in school?: Used to be additional mathematics :)
When do you start back at school/college?: Uni starting in July :(
Are you outgoing?: Yeah :)
Favorite pair of shoes?: My latin heels.
Where do you wish you were right now?: This is a dangerous question :)


THE CANS:
Can you dance?: Yes.
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: That'll be retarded to try.
Can you whistle?: YES.
Write with both hands?: Sure. Legible or not is another thing. Lol
Walk with your toes curled?: Sure? o_o


THE DO'S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets?: Yeah
Do you believe in miracles?: Now i do :)
Do you believe in magic?: Some days.
Love at first sight?: Nah.
Do you think there's a Satan?: Dont care.
Do you believe in Santa?: Nah.
Do you know how to swim?: Yup.
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?: Hey Im chinese :) Lol. Actually nah i cant.


THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane?: Yes.
Have you ever asked someone out?: Friends?
Have you ever been asked out by someone?: Yeah
Have you ever been to the ocean?: Yes.
Have you ever painted your nails?: Duh.


THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside?: 2 words. GLOBAL WARMING.
What radio station do you listen to?: Hitz.fm
What was the last restaurant you ate at?: A chinese restaurant.
What was the last thing you bought?: Reload. Heh
Who was the last person you took a picture of?: My brothers.


CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out?: All the time.
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: Used to be everynight in the past.
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: Dont think so
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: Yes.
Do you cry when you get an injury?: If its painful yeah duh.
Do certain songs make you cry?: YES.


HAPPY SECTION.
Are you a happy person?: Sure
What can make you happy?: Doing what i love, being with the people i love.
Do you wish you were happier?: Never ask for too much.
Can music make you happy?: Yeah.


LOVE SECTION.
How many times have you had your heart broken?: None.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them?: Yes.


LOOK AT ME.
What is your current hair color?: Reddish brown. Color faded :/
Current piercings?: Ears.
Have any tattoos?: Would love some.
Eye color?: Black?


IN A BOY/GIRL
Favorite eye color: Light brown :)
Short or long hair: Dont matter.
Height: Tall.
Best clothing: Himself ;)


HAVE YOU EVER.
Been to jail: NO -.-
Mooned someone: My dog?
Thrown up in a store: Nope.
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today: I guess.
Gone skinny dipping: Not yet :D


THIS OR THAT.
Pepsi or Coke : They both taste the same -.-
McDonald's or Burger King: Mcdonalds
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
Strawberries or Blueberries: strawberries.
Meat or Veggies: Meat
TV or Movie: Both
Guitar or Drums?: GUITAR.
Adidas or Nike: Dont really matter.
Chinese or Mexican: Dont really matter.
Cheerios or Corn Flakes : Corn flakes
Cake or Pie: Dont matter.