Songs

Its an emo night.



So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.


:'(


James Blunt - Goodbye my lover




If only I knew what I know today
I would hold you in my arms, I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done, forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you .


:(


Christina Aguilera - Hurt



No rewinds
No second times
And I won't break
I won't waste, everything you left behind
So don't follow
Just let it go
The weather's, been better
Don't let it be another...

Breakdown, rebound
This could be my last goodbye
You cross your heart, I hope to die

And I can't deny your eyes
You know I try to read between the lines
I saw a warning sign
And then you threw me up against the wall
Who said that it's better to have loved and lost?
I wish that I had never loved at all.


Boys Like Girls - Up against the wall.


Can you imagine a time when the truth ran free
A birth of a song, a death of a dream
Closer to the edge
This never ending story, hate 4 wheel driving fate
We all fall short of glory, lost in ourself

No I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day, maybe we'll meet again
No I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day, maybe we'll meet again
No, no, no, no


30 seconds to mars - Closer to the edge.



Those days are gone, and I want you so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight

What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?


:')


Backstreet Boys - How did i fall in love with you?



Push the door, I'm home at last
and I'm soaking through and through
Then you hand me a towel
and all I see is you
And even if my house falls down,
I wouldn't have a clue
Because you're near me and

I want to thank you
for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you
is having the best day of my life.


:)


Dido - Thank you



Emo tracks of the night. Lol.

xoxo

These words are my heart and soul.

Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'll bleed my heart out to show
That I won't let go.


:)


Sum 41 - With Me.

xx

4-1

Bye bye England.
Bye bye Fabio Capello.
Bye bye refereeeee :)


Stupid mistake by ref. Wtf are you blind? That was definitely a goal. Sigh. Well Germany deserved their win :)


Next match: Argentina vs Mexico


Go Aguero! :P
LOL.
Yeah im supporting Argentina. And when they win, yeah i said WHEN not IF cuz thats how sure am i, they'll face Germany in quarterfinals.


Brilliant :) Just brilliant.


xoxo

Meinen

YOU ARE MINE. RAWRRRR.

England or Germany?

Great News!


England made it into Top 16! :) And so did Germany! :) Yay! Both teams that i support made it through.


Top 16 clash: England vs Germany.


Great. Perfect. What now? :(

Tag

ABC About You Questions:

A - AVAILABLE: No.
B - BIRTHDAY: 25th May 1992
C - CRUSHING ON: Nobody.
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: 100 Plus.
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Myself.
F - FAVORITE SONG: Currently - Plain white Ts 1234
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Whichever.
H - HOMETOWN: Kuala Lumpur?
I - IN LOVE WITH: You.
J - JUGGLE: Between 2 worlds.
K - KILLED SOMEONE: Nope.
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: 5 hours.
M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Dont drink that stuff.
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 2 brothers.
O - ONE WISH: Quote: "Even forever dont seem like long enough" :)
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: You.
R - REASON TO SMILE: You :)
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 4pm i think.
V - VEGETABLE(S): Er o_o
W - WORST HABIT: Being the laziest ass ever.
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: None
Y – YOYOS ARE: Nostalgic :)
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Gemini

Random Questions About You:

Spell your name without vowels: sylv
What color do you wear most?: Black
What are you listening to?: Plain White Tees - 1234
Are you happy with your life right now?: Yeah
What is your favorite class in school?: Used to be additional mathematics :)
When do you start back at school/college?: Uni starting in July :(
Are you outgoing?: Yeah :)
Favorite pair of shoes?: My latin heels.
Where do you wish you were right now?: This is a dangerous question :)


THE CANS:
Can you dance?: Yes.
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: That'll be retarded to try.
Can you whistle?: YES.
Write with both hands?: Sure. Legible or not is another thing. Lol
Walk with your toes curled?: Sure? o_o


THE DO'S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets?: Yeah
Do you believe in miracles?: Now i do :)
Do you believe in magic?: Some days.
Love at first sight?: Nah.
Do you think there's a Satan?: Dont care.
Do you believe in Santa?: Nah.
Do you know how to swim?: Yup.
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?: Hey Im chinese :) Lol. Actually nah i cant.


THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane?: Yes.
Have you ever asked someone out?: Friends?
Have you ever been asked out by someone?: Yeah
Have you ever been to the ocean?: Yes.
Have you ever painted your nails?: Duh.


THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside?: 2 words. GLOBAL WARMING.
What radio station do you listen to?: Hitz.fm
What was the last restaurant you ate at?: A chinese restaurant.
What was the last thing you bought?: Reload. Heh
Who was the last person you took a picture of?: My brothers.


CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out?: All the time.
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: Used to be everynight in the past.
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: Dont think so
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: Yes.
Do you cry when you get an injury?: If its painful yeah duh.
Do certain songs make you cry?: YES.


HAPPY SECTION.
Are you a happy person?: Sure
What can make you happy?: Doing what i love, being with the people i love.
Do you wish you were happier?: Never ask for too much.
Can music make you happy?: Yeah.


LOVE SECTION.
How many times have you had your heart broken?: None.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them?: Yes.


LOOK AT ME.
What is your current hair color?: Reddish brown. Color faded :/
Current piercings?: Ears.
Have any tattoos?: Would love some.
Eye color?: Black?


IN A BOY/GIRL
Favorite eye color: Light brown :)
Short or long hair: Dont matter.
Height: Tall.
Best clothing: Himself ;)


HAVE YOU EVER.
Been to jail: NO -.-
Mooned someone: My dog?
Thrown up in a store: Nope.
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today: I guess.
Gone skinny dipping: Not yet :D


THIS OR THAT.
Pepsi or Coke : They both taste the same -.-
McDonald's or Burger King: Mcdonalds
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
Strawberries or Blueberries: strawberries.
Meat or Veggies: Meat
TV or Movie: Both
Guitar or Drums?: GUITAR.
Adidas or Nike: Dont really matter.
Chinese or Mexican: Dont really matter.
Cheerios or Corn Flakes : Corn flakes
Cake or Pie: Dont matter.

Tag

If you're a guy- post this as my kind of girl.
If you're a girl- post it as my kind of boy.


1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
Nah.

2. Smart?
Yeah okay.

3. Preferred age?
Any age will do.

4. Preferred height?
Hmm. Tall?

5. How about sense of humor?
Definitely!

6. How about piercings?
They're sexy :)

7. Accepts you for who you are?
Of course! And im one hard person to be accepted.

8. Pink hair?
Er probably no?

9. Mushy or no?
Mushy? Wth?

10. Thin or fat?
Dont matter :)

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
For a second i was thinking something dirty but yeah even rainbow would be perfectly fine :)

12. Long hair or short hair?
Dont mind :)

13. Plastic or metal? * cute or pretty ?
Why plastic? Metal? o_o I dont get this.

14. Smells good?
Mmhmm

15. Smoker?
LOL. I dont like smokers. Dont like smoking. But. Heh. x)

16. Drinker?
No hardcore alcoholics. Thats it.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
Cool :)

18. Muscular?
Abs would be very nice :)

19. Plays piano?
Thats hot.

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
Im a sucker for boys with guitars :)

21. Plays violin?
Dont matter.

22. Sings very good?
Hahaha. Dont matter.

23. Vain?
Depends.

24. With glasses?
No problem.

25. With braces?
Thats cute :)

26. Shy type?
Aww :) But nah, dont work well with my personality.

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
Rebel! :)

28. Active or passive?
Both?

29. Tight or bomb? * hot or sexy ?
How about sweet?

30. Singer or dancer?
Dancer :)

31. stunner?
Dont matter.

32. Hiphop?
Okay?

33. Earrings?
Sexy :)

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
Fuck NO.

35. Dimples?
Gah! :)

36. Bookworm?
Dont matter.

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
Definitely. I'd love to receive something in writing :)

38. Playful?
YES!

39. Flirt?
Just with me.

40. Poem writer?
Sure :D

41. Serious?
Yes.

42. Campus crush?
No.

43. Painter?
Dont matter.

44. Religious?
Not an extremist then okay.

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
YES. :)

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak
Dont matter :)

47. Speaks 20 languages?
Thats hot.

48. Loyal or faithful?
Everything please?

49. good kisser?
Most definitely.

50. emotional or cool ?
Both depending on situations.



Dont ask me why im doing tags all of a sudden. -.-

Change

- I used to scorn people in love. Bigtime.

I hated love scenes, all gooey and iloveyousoverymuchicantlivewithoutyou senarios. I even go to the extent of thinking people who 'fall in love' are weak. Because they cant live independently. They need a support system. Losers i labelled them. Yeah i couldnt understand what the hype was about. Really? You're in love? You'd die for that person? Oh yeah sureee. I'd give you 2 months maximum and that relationship is going to be over. Are you gonna kill yourself then?

Yeap i was all high and mighty about not falling in love. I was proud that i was a loner. Every single guy that came my way i stepped on them with my shoe like they were nothing. I convinced myself i didnt need them. Not anyone. And people who just 'think they're in love' deserved their painful breakup afterwards. I sound so sadistic. Goshhh. But thats the real truth. :X That was what i perceived, what i felt. That was my reason which i hid behind. Just because i wasnt strong enough to open my heart, allowed it to be vulnerable, locked it with myself so no one can touch me; I convinced myself that i was just being strong, independently. That i was the one coming out on top. Wow what a loser :)

It really isnt like that at all isnt it? Its so much more complicated than that now i realised. I used to laugh at people after breakups like a "HAH! I told you so!" moment. But really im the one everyone should be laughing at. So naive. So quick to judge. I always thought i was open minded but really i was the narrow minded one. Because falling in love is never a mistake. Because falling in love doesnt mean you cant live independently. Because falling in love just means there's something in this person thats just for you. You have found something in this person that is yours. Of course there are all kinds of love. You may fall in love and something just happens along the way that made the relationship fail. Doesnt matter, on with the next one. You'll fall in love again.

And then there is THAT kind of love which is stronger beyond the imagination. For me, I dont refer to it as 'being in love' of any kind. Its so much stronger than love. There are no words to describe it. To put it into a word in English, I'll have to settle on 'soulmates'. Only a lucky 5% maybe, will ever find that one person that truly just belongs to you.

And i finally understood all those love movies. Even one time i was watching House on Axn, just 4 words she said to him. "Hey, I love you." No bouquets of roses everywhere, no diamond ring, no tacky background orchestra, no fancy restaurant, no sexual tension, nothing. Just a plain, simple, honest from the soul I love you. 4 words and i cried for half an hour. That moment just touched me so much. Yeah how much Ive changed. Lol. Usually when it comes to those kinds of scenes, i roll my eyes and change the channel. Then mumble to myself about the predictability of it all. Heh. Epic. And my mom watching the show with me would demand i change it back and commented i will die a spinster. Bless her. I love her so much. :)

So what brought this on you ask? Hmm i was just feeling a little emotional. No surprise *rolls eyes* and I felt like writing it out. I dont know. Its just something bout seeing things in writing and writing it out that makes me calm down. Or make me burst into tears, either one. But this time it was therapeutic. And it was just something that was on my mind thats all. :] Something i was wondering about. Hmm anyhoo, its just past 2.30am Malaysian time. Which means GERMANY MATCH IS ON :D Yeah support Germany people! :) England just made it through to Top 16. Sad case about Slovenia though. :/ I feel for them man. Really i do. So im off. To watch the match. :) Its like im the only one who watches full matches among my family. Awesome :D

Oh, ponder.

xoxo

Quote: What is love?

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."

-St. Augustine

Quote

Your task is not to seek love, but merely to seek & find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.

- Rumi

Quote

I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge -- myth is more potent than history -- dreams are more powerful than facts -- hope always triumphs over experience -- laughter is the cure for grief -- love is stronger than death.

-- Robert Fulghum

Living.

So you may have noticed i changed my blog layout (: Why? Oh no reason. Was just playing around with the new blogger template designs and thought to myself this template looks pretty cool. (: And the rest was history! Plus it was pink so :D Muahhahaha. Had to of course reconfigure my chatbox and statcounter to go with the theme. Didnt turn out too well but heck. I think its okie dokie for a mediocre bloggie.


Yeah, that rhymed :) Woohoo im awesome :D



Spain vs Honduras match going on. (Did i spell that right?) Anyway going off to catch the rest of the match. Let Spain be out, let spain be out :D And Germany into the finals. Weeee! And England into quarter finals atleast x) Lol.



Do we live in the physical world we can touch, or do we live in the world we create in our minds and touch with our hearts? Or do we live in both? And if so where do we draw the line between living in reality and real living?


Ponder.
xoxo

Okay i was feeling i little bit poetic, so yeah.

I want to hear your silence
When you finally discover the truth.
I want to whisper nothings
into the night with you.

I want to say Im sorry
for not being your best.
But I want us to be different
to be the ones who last.

I dont want a million things
that im sure you can give me.
And I dont need a million reasons
about His plans for me.

All i need more than ever
is the sound of your voice
the touch of your skin
the answer of my choice.

The rush of guilty pleasure
the silence of your breath.
A love no one can measure
in a brush of passioned perfect lips.

And i want to hear your silence
when you finally discover the truth.
To cry tears of love when i say
i simply cannot and will not live without you.

Houston, may i please please please leave this building?

I was under reconstruction
and then terrorists came
and attacked my building.

Just perfect.




Okay if you did not just get me, it means i was having my period and to top it all i fell sick. And my sinus is giving me these annoying headaches. So after much MUCH deliberation, i stayed in bed for 2 days. Skipping the prom meeeting on Friday and my piano, guitar & ballet class on Saturday. Ditching Embrys and her boyrfriend and the others at karaoke on saturday as well.


I do not like skipping. I rarely skipped anything ):


But I did. And thank God i did because im a flowing water tap. Box of tissues beside me and i cant stop sneezing. Gross. How do you like me now? D: And to kill time, i watched Sex and the City. No not Sex and the City 2, but Sex and the City as in the first one. Yeah. And i got all awww and emotional and cried a fair bit at a few parts of the movie. As if i didnt have enough fluids coming out from different holes of my body already. (Excuse the disgustingness) Yeah im a mess and i look like a mess.


And why am i ranting? Because im pissed off at being sick. Pissed off at being an invalid. Pissed off with feeling cold then hot then cold again. Am i developing a fever? Ah fuck. Pissed off with having a difficult and painful period this time. Yeah did i mention painful? D: Arghhhh.


Its 1.15am Sunday morning. Yeah its sunday. I dont want to stay home on Sunday ): I dont want 3rd day of bedrest. Im soo restless I want to go out. But i dont want to be a flowing water tap in public. Makeup might make me look more presentable but i dont want to wear makeup because im lazy to remove it afterwards. But but arghhhhh. )':



@#Q^%!RE^&%TY!*@E&!*E&!@^#%&!



I want to go ice skating.


):


Yeah very funny. Start laughing. This is the part exactly where you'll call me an idiot and go on a 3 minute long rant about me being a dumbass. Love it. :)


Oh and dont get me started on the pills. D: I am BAD at taking pills. Cant swallow. Takes me forever. Amoxycilin is quite alright, but anything rounder and bigger there's a problem. Panadols take me a full cup of water plus half a cup more to wash the taste down. (Yes, i bite the pill into pieces) But thats the only way i can get it in. So yeah being sick for me is a huge problem. And my mouth currently smells of bad breath and strepsils losenges. Fucking eww.


So yeah. Im pissed at being sick. So pissed till i have to complain about it to the world. And all i want right now is an undeserved hug ): Sigh fuck this. xx


And happy father's day! Lol.


xoxo

Kiss my ass goodbye :D Im off for Char Koay Teow baby!

Hello world! :)


In continuation of my previous posts' obessession with Gil Ofarim's version of Its Your Love, i am currently learning how to play the song on guitar. Woohoo. Pretty simple actually. Easy chords to play but being the noob that i am it'll take me ages before i could get it down pat (: Muahahahah. But still, its a very orgasmic experience i tell you :D Brings out the emo queen in me. In a good way, mind. Heh


So what else? Hmmm. Oh yeah i bought new bras and undies :D Weeee! It all started out with Madeline & Denissa boasting about buying new bras. *envious* Then Embrys followed suit and bought some bras as well. Yellow with flowers or something like that. == Idk. Soooo feeling left out, i went out and bought some :D hahahhaha. Nahh kidding. Im not that big of an idiot. I really did need some new ones :) So. Yeah. Rm150 worth from Triumph! Thank you mommy :) And yeah i know. Do i really need to write this out to the world? You must be thinking:


You cannot fathom the immensity of the fuck i do not give.


Woots! Yeah i can but YOU cannot fathom the immensity of the fuck i do not give to the fuck YOU do not give :D HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. And so on and so on :) LOL! I know, i have completely lost it. Muahahhahaa.


(Its a facebook group by the way. Join join join! :D )


http://www.facebook.com/pages/You-cannot-fathom-the-immensity-of-the-fuck-i-do-not-give/128249450523055



Anyway moving on from my sudden hyperialismness *dont bother googling, i made that up* I'll be leaving for Penang in lets see. 1, 2, 3, no- 4 hours time! Why in the world im going all the way up there? Well mommy, brother and uncle wanted to go EAT. *facepalms* Awesomeness. So yeah they made it into a family trip. Even Toa Ee & Uncle Al from Singapore will be joining us. Driving all the way from one end to the other of West Malaysia. LOL. Naiceee :D So right now, everyone is asleep in my house. The usual. Except me of course. Not planning to sleep. Already slept for 8 hours this morning till afternoon so no point :/ And everyone is all packed and ready. Except me. The usual. :/


Hmmm.


And i need to do a few things before i leave. Like BATHE :D Nyahahahaha. And wash my hair. Its getting greasy. Urgh yuck. And shave my legs :) because im planning on wearing a black mini later. With white heels. And long sleeved blue top i just bought from FOS last Sunday :)


Blueeeeeeee :))))


And long sleeved! \m/ Such a goody girl. Daddy will love me i bet you. Like forever. His little girl has finally learned how to dress decently. Yeah its my first long sleeved top since i was like 11. Lol. I'll shock him into silence (:


Blacccckkkkkkkk :))))


*my background is black so of course i had to use grey or you wont be able to read the word lol*


Dont mind me. I do not plan to explain. So yeah :) Oh and i have to talk to my dogs as well. :/ Explain to them im leaving for 3 days. So that they know. Poor thing, she gets real upset everytime i leave :( She wont eat and she'll wait for me at the front door till i get home. :( So loyal. So silly. I love that bitch. Whaaaat? Dont look at me like that. Like you dont talk to your dogs. Geez. And i have 7 i have to talk to. Not easy okaaaay. I'll have to face their little faces before i leave. Almost makes me dont wanna leave at all. :/ Almost. Gah.




And oh i was supposed to post up some pictures from the Charm Cheerleading Championships but i got reaaaal lazy so for pictures just go to http://glittercookies.blogspot.com ! :) Hehehe



Okay thats it for now. I gotta go get my things ready or my family will shout till the roof collapses if im not ready to leave later. LOL. Vicious things they are i tell you x( No joke. But good thing is im bringing my lappy along together with my P1 Wimax wiggy :D Weeee. That thing is too adorable i tell you. Love it.

Soooo make sure you miss me. Make sure you bug my cellphone non stop. And tell me that you miss me. LOL :) And i will love you forever :D HAHAHHAA. Kidding. Not that desperate. And this is a good time to again, say YOU CANNOT FATHOM THE IMMENSITY OF THE FUCK I DO NOT GIVE :D Woohoooo! See ya! xx



3 days. will. kill. me. But Im holding on to our promise :)
And not fall into the ocean or get run over by hungry tourists.
AHHAHAHHAHA.

Ich liebe dich!
xoxo



Oh oh oh oh! HAPPY WORLD CUP FEVER Y'ALL! :D Support Germany & England people! :) Come on, dont be bastards. Support, support, support! :D xx

Es ist deine lieber

I am supposed to send in my offer letter from the University of Nottingham but i seem to have misplaced it. Oh joy :) Lets hope my maid didnt throw it away with all the other junk mail. LOL.


Anyway recently i came across my old time favourite song again that i just used to be so obsessed with when i was much younger. And yeah of course i was obsessed with the singer as well because i think he's just too beautiful :) And that voice! Rough around the edges. Sexy! ;)


Gil Ofarim - Its your love :)





I think the original singers were Tim McGraw & Faith Hill. Which they sang awesomely of course. But i like Gil's version better. Again, that roughness in his voice just urghhh. Captures the lyrics and melody perfectly i think. Everything is more intense somehow. And those eyes, you can get lost in them anyday. Plus he has gorgeous hair in the video! And the blue he was wearing compliments him extremely :) But uhhhh. Did i mention HIS VOICE? :DD I could listen to him all day. Forgive me, i was but a little girl after all with extremely big dreams, convinced that owning celebrities isnt an impossible thing at all. Nuh-uh :) Poor child.


Poor sick child :)



Oh and did i mention my new favourite colour is blue? :D And soft brown :) Dont ask. Hehehehehhe. Lol.



Dancin' in the dark
middle of the night.
Takin' your heart
holdin' it tight.
Emotional touch,
Touchin' my skin
Askin' you to do
what you've been doin'
all over again.
Oh, it's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in
I've just gotta let you know
What it is that won't let me go


It's your love
Just does somethin' to me
Sends a shock right through me
Can't get enough
And if you wonder
'bout the spell I'm under
It's your love.


Better than I was,
More than I am.
All of that happened
By takin' your hand.
Who I am now
Is who I've wanted to be.
Now that we're together
Stronger than ever, happy and free.
Oh, it's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in.
And if you ask me why I'll change
All I gotta do is say your sweet name.


It's your love
Just does somethin' to me
Sends a shock right through me
Can't get enough
And if you wonder
'bout the spell I'm under
Its your love.



Yeah baby, its your love :)
xoxo