Nothing else i can say

These past days,

I've been upset.
I've been down.
I've been happy.
I've been trying to convince myself that its fine.
I've been letting myself feel better.
I've been beating myself up.
I've been letting myself heal.
Just to tear the wound open over and over again.
Just so i could feel the pain.

But after today. After everything...



I feel numb.
I am speechless.
I dont know what to say anymore.
I dont know what else i can do.


Perhaps i deserved it.
Do what you think is right.
Right for you.
I can only start doing my part from now.
I have tried. I am sorry.


I didnt expect this.
I am numb.